Why do you hate Valentines day? What happened to the simoncpu that I once knew?

You were once an idealist, a romantic who sincerely believes in true and everlasting love. You saw the world with rose-colored glasses, and saw the very best in each person. You roamed free in your world of paper flowers, and frolicked under clouds of lullaby.

Your world was perfect.

Valentines is pointless. Why do I need to conform to society's stupid expectations? Every Feb 14 I see hapless souls who think they can impress their dates with flowers, chocolates, and fancy dinner. They do this in the guise of celebrating the day of love, when all they want to do is to get laid. This whole thing is a charade.

I understand how you feel. Your reaction is understandable, although it is certainly out of proportion. A little dose of cynicism enables you to perceive reality as is; however, too much cynicism is unhealthy and can start a vicious cycle that would drown us in a sea of misery. Is this a form of narcissism, a symptom of too much self-love?

The world is shit. The world doesn't care about us. Everything is fake and meaningless, including Valentines day. I don't give a fuck about your touchy-feely thoughts on how the world is good. Fuck you.

Do you really not care about the world? Do you, in all honesty, truly think that the world is evil? I remember the time that you wanted to do something great, to do something that can change the world in a meaningful way. Despite your limitations, you were keenly aware of your gifts and talents, and you felt that you must give yourself to the world in order to make it a better place.

Is man defined by nature, or is he defined by nurture? Is he defined by his personal experiences or is he defined by his biological traits? If God made us with a special purpose, then our experiences are by no means an accident. Our physical makeup that makes us who we are predisposes us to uniquely react to enivornmental stimuli, thereby molding us into the person that God needs to fulfill his purpose. The way you are, the way your world is, is the best that can be.

Hello! My name is blog.simoncpu.com, and I feel so sad right now. My owner, simoncpu, hasn't given me much attention lately. He said that he wanted me to be a special blog, a blog so special that none will be like me. My task, he said, is to tell the story about his personal life.

Yet, as the years went by, I felt that his sweet words were but empty promises. He said that I'm supposed to be special, but look at my layout, it's so generic! I feel so sad. :(

Look, he's given more attention to techblog.simoncpu.com instead. What is it with techblog that I don't have? I used to be his one and only one, but as soon as techblog arrived, I felt that he no longer loves me. Techblog is boring, and she only blabbers about stupid and mundane details about simoncpu's exploration with his world of computers. I mean, FreeBSD? Eee? What do those acronyms stand for anyway? He's such a geek, and I so wish that I could bring him to the real world instead. You see, he's way up there, sitting in his ivory tower of pseudo-intellectualism. Isolated, and cut off from the warmth of people. His world is devoid of love, except for his love for himself. He thinks that his tower is a castle, but I think of it as a prison. He thinks that he knows the secrets of the universe, but I think he doesn't know the secret to be free and to be truly human.

I want to tear down his walls so that I can let him out. He needs to be released from his prison.

Someone told me that I'm crazy for posting something very revealing last night. The idealist in me believes in openness, so I didn't really give it much thought until now. I guess it's good to have someone pragmatic to balance my worldview.

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I have forked MoodalBox into MoomooBox.

I'm too lazy to upload my pics. Dunno... I enjoy taking pics but I dunno... blah. It's 11:23PM. I haven't eaten my lunch yet. w00h00! I'm a vampire. I'll go to IT Park and eat lunch. Am I typing my thoughts online? I'll get the camera from the office. I'm too lazy to sort through the pics. Sorting is boring. Is it really boring or am I just rationalizing that it's boring because in reality, my brain is not equipped to sort things. I see things as inter-connected possibilities, and sorting means categorizing things and putting them inside a box, but I can usually see a hundred categories for different objects and concepts. I can't prioritize things because everything has equal priority. Blah. I'm hungry. Is there a name for what I'm doing? I think this is a braindump. Debugging my Life's Core Dump. I'm really hungry. I wish I can teleport anywhere. I want to cook. I cooked at someone's house' last week. I enjoy the process of cooking. Ei, this is like taking pics. I enjoy the process of taking pics but I find the end result boring. Dunno next week. Dunno where I'll sleep next week. I'm hungry I need to stop typing now. What is the purpose of this blog? What gave me the motivation to do an online brain dump? Generalizing the problem. What motivates a person to perform certain things? Can we exploit it in order to stimulate ourselves to perform those things whenever we don't feel like doing it? It, they, is, are. I don't know why, but I'm usually confused when to use singular or plural thingy. "It" has different meaning, and its meaning is constantly changing inside my head. Whoa, this is my braindump. Many thoughts occur inside my head. 11:37-11:23pm. These are my thoughts for the past 14 minutes. I'm hungry. I need to stop blogging now.

I'm currently writing a Waray Wikipedia article on the Agavi PHP framework. Makuri man ngay-an pag surat hin Winaray bahin hit Siyensya ug Teknolohiya. The language lacks the ability to express technical terms clearly.

I.e.,

Open source community = komunidad han mag-hirimo han libre nga software

Namiling ako hin mga baton han akon mga pakiana. Siring han Wikipedia, mayda daw unta hadto "Sanghiran San Binisaya ha Samar ug Leyte" nga maghihimo hin standard ortography para hit Winaray nga lenguahe, pero waray daw na-kaprag ha mga katawhan.

Feel ko la mag-winaray kay waray la. Ambot. Gin-aano daw la pag i-spell hit waray? Bagan waray man istandard para hini, so kanan Pilipino na la nga ispelling it ak gagamiton. Mayda ak nakit-an nga waray literature nga iba it ira spelling. Sige daw, testingnan daw naton ha sunod nga paragraph.

Mapirao na kai ala una y media pasado na. Ka werdo daw ene nga speling. Pero amo man et casorat het mga calagsan. Basta, C et era gingagamet het K, ug E et era gengagamet het I, pero weird kai dere asya pamateon. Dapat may estandard hene. Blah.